BonnieBelle

To some 2lbs may not be alot but i have been stuck at 147lbs for months now and this 2lbs feels like a huge victory to me.  I am really starting to love my body more and more, i still have more bad days then good when i just look at my body and i am not happy with what i see, but then i have days (mostly during yoga class) when i catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and i am really happy with my body and how far i have come.

only 15 more lbs until i reach my goal…this is doable. i can do this. yes i can!

So week two wasnt nearly as good as week one. i was very distracted this week i missed all my workouts. i had an anatomy practical and i was so stressed out from that, that ive just been eating what i want within reason and skipping my workouts. monday i went to boston to visit friends of mine and i feel like all we did was eat, and eat. i need to get back on track and today is the begining of week 3, ive only got 4 weeks left so i really want to make the most of it. not that at the end of the 4 weeks my diet ends but i just really wanted to be commited and see what 6 solid weeks would do for me. but i suppose life happens right. 

 boo, im down on myself today. i feel like im never going to reach my goals.

i weighted myself at the gym today and i lost are you ready for this…..a half of a pound. Well its better than nothing. what do you think about those doctors scales they have at the gym are those accurate. i was thinking of going out and buying a digital scale just to see what that says. if the gym scale is correct i now weight 146.5 and thats means only 10.5 more pounds to go to reach my goal.

this diet is getting easier and easier, i could keep this up forever. the hardest part  for me is not drinking when i go out and tuesday night when i went out not having a cigerette was hard because everyone around me was smoking but i did fine. if i had been drinking i probably would have just asked someone for one. i feel good and though i dont think my progress is showing yet, i know it will start to show in a few weeks.

 meditating in the morning is unbelievably helpful i recommend it to everyone. it gives me energy and strength throughout the day.

Work today was different, my client and I went with her mother to the 30th anniversary bash for the company i work for. I work with people with developmental disabilities so it was very touching to see the video they put together about the past 30 years. it was nice to see all the staff and clients and interact with everyone. it was just a very nice day. But it was a party so that means there was party food. i indulged ever so slightly…a piece of chocolate, 2 scallops wrapped in bacon and a few hunks of cheese, oh and a handful of M&Ms. But i had eaten a healthy breakfast and lunch so i let it go without stressing. My workout tonight was great other than the fact that when i got to the gym i noticed that my ipod was not charged so i had to do my cardio sans music which was tough but i made it through and pushed myself hard. im doing really well, im proud of myself i just hope i dont lose my motivation.

Yesterday was day Five of my modified detox diet, it was great the best day of the diet so far. im really getting into the swing of it now and its not hard at all i dont feel like im dieting which is great. i went to my Yoga class last night which felt great Michelle (the instructor) even kicked it up a notch because there was only two of us in class. i tried to meditate on loving my body. i thought about what i wished my body would look like and then what is an attainable goal for me. im short im only 5′2 and im curvy i would be that way even if i weighed 100lbs. but i like that about myself i like being curvy its womanly i dont want to lose my curves but i do want to be happy when i look in the mirror. there are just a few bulges here and there that i would like to tighten up. and thats what i meditated on last night in yoga, loving my body and having the strength to change what i can about it.

Day Six… tuesdays are tough for me becuase i have my anantomy class all day from 9am to 3:30pm. half lecture and half lab. most of the time im in a rush in the morning so i dont eat breakfast this time was not much different i was in a rush so i grabbed a string cheese and two whole wheat pretzels i wish i had eaten more but i wasnt hungry afterward so thats a good thing. for lunch at school i usually grab a slice of pizza becuase i only have a half hour lunch break but today i opted for a garden salad with chicken and light italian dressing and a banana. when i got home i had a yogurt with granola and im planning to make a chicken stir fry in a few minutes. so its been a pretty good day. im going out with friends tonight and im going to try hard to stay away from alcoholic drinks. its tough for me becuase i do like to be social and have a good time.

xo

Yesterday was day three of the diet and it went well until late at night i had gone out to play pool with friends everyone was having drinks and i found it easy to stay away from the alcohol but i guess i hadn’t eaten enough during the day or i had just eaten dinner too early but after leaving the pool hall Josh (my fiance) and I stopped at wendy’s and i had a french fry and a crispy chicken sandwich. i knew i should not have given in but it was so late at night and we had nothing to eat at home.

Anyhow, today i went to the gym for an hour i did my cardio and circuit weight training. it felt good but im exhausted now becuase right after leaving the gym i had to hustle over to the book store to meet with my anatomy study group. i have a million things to do today but im pretty sure i wont have any problems sticking to a healthy eating plan.

this is the second day of my detox diet…it went well but i keep feeling like it could have gone better. it is friday after all so i went out to eat with a friend and had soup and sushi which is good but i also ordered a drink halfway through i realized that this diet and feeling good about myself is more important that having a drink with dinner, so i just left the rest of my drink. its hard becuase i want to be social but i think its hard for me to go out and not drink, but drinking is what helped me put on 15lbs this summer. 

I am going to Key West in december and i really want to feel good about myself. i need to keep my goal in mind and not let temptation get the best of me.

so its been a few months since ive joined the site and i haven’t lost a single pound since my initial 5 pound loss. so ive been reading alot about detox diets and decided they are not for me becuase it is too extreme but ive decided to create my own modified detox diet.  For the next six weeks im going to eat healthy: alot of protein and veggies, very very little bread. Im going to work out at LEAST five days a week. Monday: yoga  Tuesday: kickboxing Wednesday:Pilates Thursday:Weight Training Friday: Cardio Saturday:Pilates and Sunday:Yoga. I am also going to abstain from Sex, alcohol and ciggarettes for the next six weeks.  i also plan to start every morning with an hour of meditation. at the end of six weeks i plan to be a little thinner, and much happier, peaceful and centered.

Today is day one and i plan to write daily about my progress. this morning i worked out in the gym for  and hour and a half, it felt so good i forgot how much i love working out. i happened to have this morning off from work, i really wish i had more mornings that i could take my time getting up getting ready and going to the gym. but i think the schedule i have mapped out should fit my life. time will tell.

 wish me luck. xo

Im attending a friends wedding on Sept. first and really want to look my best. i bought a black dress that is really cute but my tummy is a little poochie in it. i have about two weeks to work on it. Does anyone have tips for flattening your tummy in a hurry or on the other hand does anyone have tips for hiding the tummy in a dress.

 tips please. xo xo

I definately let my diet slip this week while i was on vacation. I wanted to enjoy myself and relax and since i enjoy eating, that meant eating what i want and i wasn’t thinking about healthy choices. I was also riding high on how good i felt after buying my wedding dress, so i haven’t really been working as hard as i should be. I am going to really make an effort this week to get to the gym everyday and also get up before work to meditate and do yoga. when i can manage to get up that early i feel so good and it carries me through the day. I need to keep that in mind on the days that it is tough to get up. I haven’t weighed myself in a few weeks and i think thats for the best if i have gained weight i dont feel like i have and i need that positive vibe to keep me going.

 Good Luck to everyone else, this weight lose endeavor is tough im sending you all some positive energy.

xo